40 minutes since my last post thats how fast it took me to fall part... this day started amazing I didnt wake up sad over him I woke up hopeful set my goals for the day stayed busy only realized I missed him once and then I lay down for bed as soon as my daughter leaves to her room im bawling like its day one 😔😒🥺 i miss him soo soo much guys I could almost feel his arms around me I cant stop thinking of the last night we spent together before everything blew up his handsome face his smile his kisses I know this is part of the process doesnt mean it hurts any less im gonna try and record my thoughts cry until I feel better even though I just want to be held by him one more time and it seems easier to unblock and go back to what we had I wont because I cant start the process all over again just to avoid my pain.
Last updated on:2026-07-20T19:38:20+05:30
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proud of you for noticing the urge to unblock him and still choosing yourself. i did that too many times, and every time i went back before i was ready, i ended up hurting all over again.
thank you ut hit.me hard afterwards but i am ok for now but i know i dont want to have to start all over im kinda scared of him reaching out though i have him blocked on everything but hes the type to show up at my job or house and i know all that will be triggering hopefully i dont have to worry about until months from now i know itll happen i just dont know when
i’m so sorry you’re carrying that tonight 😔 when you picture going back to him, do you miss who he is right now, or are you missing the version of him from that last good night together?
I think im just missing having someone there your person the once boring rituals that I thought were annoying but now miss terribly knowing I had someone when I went to sleep and when I woke up my life became so lonely once we broke up because he was my everything my best friend my partner my lover my therapist my safe place and now I feel soo lonely
I hate this saying but healing isn't linear. and it isn't. He was part of your life and it is like that person has died. It's an unreal situation, because he didn't die, but choose to walk away.
I wish I could comfort you with presence. Because I think the void that person leaves behind is huge. It's not talking to them, not being present.
But once you did it before alone and you will do it again.
its a long road. But we will all come out stronger. Do it for the future you❤️
thank you your kinds words have helped me to keep going and hopeful for the future im exhausted today but I can feel it getting better and little progress is still progress
nights where i was fine all day and then the second everything got quiet, i was crying over the same memories like the breakup just happened. those moments when you miss their arms are SO hard
yes I have to agree it was a rough night but I got through it im exhausted but I got through it with my no contact in tact today will be a better day
Its a roller-coaster my friend. whoever invented breakups as part of the human design created a flawed system.. Sending you the biggest hug.
thanks I could really use it right about now. im so tired but I cant sleep 😔