I cried in the morning...yes I did...but I don't know I felt less sad while crying..now that I look at it i think I am finally processing the whole thing which happend between him and I.
I also get angry that he left me in a situation like this..or he would've handled the situation better..he saw me hurting but still choose to walk away instead...I also think that he knew I was having an attachment or moreover having feelings for him but still continued doing those physical things..maybe he was leading me on..because he said he can't stop himself...then he is also saying to be friends instead..even I tried to be friends I needed his reassurance...but he was never there when I needed...which caused constant fights between us...
which made him irritated in the end...and he stayed during the fights..maybe cause of his guilt?? I don't know.. he didn't wanted to be with me the moment he said he wanted to be friends...but I fought because I felt used and discarded....one more thing he did was not giving time and neglecting..
these are the realisation I have till now..I don't know how much I will realise as the days passes...maybe crying is like helping my body to heal or something..
I sometimes think to break no contact...wait for his call..text..I have blocked him ofc..but still..I think..
Last updated on:2026-07-30T09:56:14+05:30
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crying over someone who kept choosing distance while i was still trying to hold us together. that anger after the sadness hits is so real, especially when you feel like you were left carrying everything alone.
yeah the emotional burden comes on you alone..
accepting that their guilt or their words didn’t change how their actions made me feel. i had to stop looking for reassurance from someone who kept showing me they couldn’t give it.
yeah I just miss him I guess
hope ur okay i believe in you🤍🤍
thank you ❤️
I’m always grateful when I can access my anger. I find it helps me to detach from my ex, whereas sadness keeps me attached. we have to feel all of it, unfortunately, and in cycles and fluctuations - don’t be disheartened if you find yourself going back to how you were feeling before, you are healing ❤️🩹
thank you 💖
Healing is a roller coaster and tears are cleansing. We learn the most about ourselves during painful experiences. its annoying it has to be like that... but it is.
yeah I'll get through it..tho..I'm determined
@cookie you got this
you imagine breaking no contact, are you hoping for him to come back or hoping he’ll finally understand how much this hurt you
maybe..I don't know what I'm hoping maybe I just miss him...but I know I won't break no contact