Today is what us teens call national girlfriend day so usually we post our girlfriends. My first year without her since 2024 so it’s hitting me a bit hard also our anniversary is exactly a month from today. I don’t want to care anymore but I can’t help to. It randomly enters my mind through out the day and I just don’t want that idea of them being together now in my head. To me, her relationship doesn’t seem like a rebound but better yet choosing a different life than me. Only things I feel she remembers is the wrong I did to her, what she didn’t like about me and what I could’ve done better. The sad reality is that I’m over complicating it and the reason behind her leaving is that she wants nothing to do with me anymore. If anyone can understand how I feel I would appreciate a reply because it gets pretty lonely dealing with this.
Last updated on:2026-08-03T05:26:11+05:30
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honestly the only thing that started easing it for me was forcing myself to name the thoughts when they came and then do one small thing that had nothing to do with her, even if it was just a walk or putting on music i actually liked
what's one thing she used to do that you really enjoyed doing together, even if it's small? i ask because sometimes remembering the good parts without the self-blame helps me breathe through days like this.
first holiday like that after my ex left. national girlfriend day popped up and it felt like the whole internet was rubbing salt in it. those random thoughts about her new life hit me out of nowhere too, like my brain wouldn't let me log off from the pain. you're not alone in the lonely part, it sucks.
I understand. I am sure that isn't all she remembered. if you did things wrong use this as an opportunity to learn and grow. you got this.