no matter how much I try I just can't let go, 4 years and everything, her being with someone else, cheated on me, I was so faithful for her, cared for her, loved her, did everything for her, but cheating while with me is fcuking hard to swallow. For 3 months and then left out of nowhere, no closure, no nothing, she didn't even said what was wrong with me, she just packed up and left.
I don't know what to do, i thought she was the one, I wanted to marry her, wanted to give her everything but she just left for a different guy such a shallow way to decide 4 years of sh*t, shove it in garbage.
I was so good in everything, topper of class, academically excellent, was on the path to my research career, and now it's just like..... ?
where , what am I, i can't focus on anything, everytime it's just this thing about the unfaithful, the her being with someone else, sharing what I had with someone else, sleeping with someone else, i just can't think straight, forget about my research career!!
i know I'm just emotionally driven right now so I'm not thinking straight, obviously I want to pursue my research, and career it's just i don't have any motivation to do anything really.
I just sit at my home and sleep and do nothing, and I'm never been this guy who I am right now, so it's even more hard to even accept. I was committed, she wasn't that's all. But I never loved a women so much than her, I don't know when and where would I find someone else. I'm not in a hurry , and I'm not trying to do this to replace her , to replace the pain it's just I don't know. it fucking hurts.
im just numbed, all day, doing nothing, just lying on bed, doing nothing, I have loads of work to do and I know that ,but deliberately ignore it, because I just can't , just can't do it. That fucks my mind even more, I have taken too much leave on the job, even thought of considering to leave the job and totally focus on going to mba or research, can't decide, just sit at home , do nothing, haven't showered for 2 days, I'm wreck, i can't do anything.
Can anyone help please , i can't let her go? im angry why the fuck I'm still hoping??
Last updated on:2026-05-04T14:05:50+05:30
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are you talking to anyone about this in real life? because the way you’re stuck right now sounds really heavy to carry alone.
No not really, that's an issue , i need to
i got cheated on after years of giving EVERYTHING too, and it broke something in me. the images in your head don’t stop, it’s like your mind keeps replaying it to torture you.
how to move on with that
It is the worst feeling ever. I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I think the first step is to see a therapist. They’ll listen to you and give you tools to deal with the pain and you’ll heal better. You got this 💪🏼🫶🏼
I’m so sorry that she did that to you. it’s awful. she is awful. the hardest part is getting out of that rut, start small, the first thing is to go for that shower, you can even sit in it a while before washing yourself down, and then make sure you eat. I have a to do list app and I set goals for myself each day, I make sure to read, go for my walk with my dog, personal hygiene is important and I make sure to eat. the food doesn’t always have to be the best, but so long as it is something while I find myself again