Just when i thought i moved on, suddenly i zoned out while riding motorcycle if i gone to the right,my life could already be taken. It was scary because just when my brain is blank and empty at the moment, I don't even care if i'm alive or die anymore. Never knew my condition was that terrible, that it interferes with my daily life. I couldn't walk for couple of days and when I am bedridden all i could think about is how caring would she be if it's the old she that learns about this. It makes me sad knowing she won't be in my chapter anymore, acknowledging that she always can lift up the windows to check up on me from her bf who is my housemate and her bsf who is also my housemate, it was critically unfair to me.
Last updated on:2026-06-03T22:05:11+05:30
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how much of this pain is coming from missing her, and how much is coming from having to live with the constant reminder of her through your housemates every day?
when i was that low, i really hoped someone in my life knew how bad it had gotten, and i hope you're talking to someone about this, not just us. if those thoughts about not caring whether you live or die keep showing up, please reach out to a crisis line or someone you trust.
i had a moment after my breakup where i realized i wasn't paying attention to the road because my head was somewhere else entirely, and that scared me more than the heartbreak itself. when you stop caring what happens to you for a second, that's a rough place to be