ok so ive been in love with this person since late summer 2024. I've been rejected, i got told they werent ready for a relationship. we stayed friends. i confessed again last year asking for distance to get over them. i didnt get any distance but only more ambiguous behavior.
time skip to january 2026. i had just got out of the hospital bc of a bpd episode, i was very vulnerable and we had sex.
we kinda had sex a second time on February, he even gave me valentines days gifts. after that, no explanation, nothing. he was aware of my feelings the whole time btw.
he disappeared from our friend group for a month and half with, again,no explanation, and he never said anything about what we did together.
i was so worried about being the unrequited pos who was playing the long game (not true, i just wanted to love him) but in the end he was the one playing the long game just to have sex w me. bc hes been ambiguous since the start, even after he rejected me.
i idealized a bad person again and im so ashamed.
Last updated on:2026-06-23T20:16:05+05:30
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i had someone keep me in that gray area for months, close enough to keep my hopes alive but never actually choosing me. the shame hit hard when it ended, but looking back i was just someone who loved honestly and got attached to mixed signals
im sorry u can understand this. honestly its been really hard
i really felt the part where he knew about your feelings the whole time.🥺
honestly I wouldn't wish this situation on my worst enemy :(
after he disappeared and never addressed what happened between you two, did he ever come back and try to explain himself at all, or did he just act like none of it happened?
he came back, said sorry for disappearing but didnt address anything