I checked to see if she still had me blocked. I’m so done with thinking about her. I want her gone from my mind. I know I have to continue to learn my lesson but the more I think about her the more bitter I become. I want to throw everything to do with her away. I don’t need her and she doesn’t need me obviously. I want to accept that she isn’t the person who I thought she was and that what I did was because I love so hard. I’m done thinking that she will regret her decision. I’m done caring that another man has her love and body. It’s no longer special to me. Honestly I just romanticize it because of loneliness but truthfully speaking I want nothing to do with her anymore. First love or not she is not the girl I fell in love with anymore. I need to grow up with thinking that I have control over this stuff and take control over my own life. I’m leaving her alone for good.
Last updated on:2026-07-06T18:15:27+05:30
Comments (6)
This sounds so much like my scenario. At the beginning I struggled imagining her getting intimate with another man, but now im at a point where I just wish her well and want to go our separate ways. The girl I was in love with does not exist. The new version of her is grumpy, toxic, and emotionally unavailable. I feel slightly guilty because I have hurt her in the past, but I am now a new man and if she doesn't accept that, I cant let her destroy me.
it doesn't sound like you failed, it sounds like you're tired.
i checked if i was still blocked more times than i want to admit because some part of me hoped something had changed. the day i realized i didn't even WANT them back anymore was the day things finally started shifting
what do you think made you check today? was it missing HER, or was today just one of those lonely days that brought everything back?
it’s so hard to belive they are gone from our lives.All I remember are the good times I spend with her but I feel like I need to focus on remembering all the suffering she put me through and hopefully then I could let her go
It definitely is a process to come to that point where you actually realize you have no other choice but to move on. I am struggling with it myself.