today is hours before we actually decide to break up. I have nothing to do today which makes this day extremely harder. I have thoughts of coming to his house on my motor, showing up with flowers, asking if he wants to have coffee. to say that I know he misses me, to say that I miss him. and to say that after a week of us no longer together, that all I want is us to try again. I want to say I know he wants that too but too afraid to reach out. I want to say I want us back. I want us to figure it out together. but I dont know. if I do it and it fails, it will shatter any hope for him coming back on his own terms and healing. I just. Im just grasping at straws. ive been sick, vomiting, unable to eat or drink, unable to sleep yet so tired. I miss him so much it hurts my body physically. what do yall think I should do?
Last updated on:2026-07-24T17:35:11+05:30
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if it were me, i'd wait until my body settled a little before making a decision this big. every time i reached out while i was throwing up from anxiety and couldn't sleep, i was trying to stop the panic more than solve the relationship.
when you say you've both decided to break up, did he actually say he wants the relationship to end too, or does it still feel uncertain between you?
I felt it was uncertain. cuz when I asked if he wanted to block, unfriend and unfollow each other. he didn't want that. but then again, this was the 3rd time we decided to end it eh, the first one lasted only hours, the 2nd was three days, and the 3rd is ongoing so idk. I'm hoping of course there is going back but idk
stay strong
i showed up at someone's door once because i thought one honest conversation could save us. it didn't, and i ended up carrying the pain of the breakup AND the rejection. i wish i'd let that first wave pass before i did anything.
Do something nice for yourself today. Do you have a place you love to eat? Go treat yourself to a yummy meal, or go for a nice walk somewhere pretty.