thinking of my ex
I can’t stop thinking about him I can’t even sleep or do anything because everything reminds me of him and I feel even guilty for even talking to people it’s hard even not to stalk his social media it drives me crazy we broke off and on but I don’t think this time we are getting back together it is literally driving me nuts I cry off and on it’s been. since Friday November 28 we broke up but I haven’t talk to him since last Saturday morning about our breakup them I kept blowing him up he would just leave me on read this month would literally be 9 months ugh I was literally gonna marry this guy life sucks so fucking bad
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did he ever give you clarity during those off-and-on moments or were you always the one trying to hold it together? sometimes the answer to that tells you a lot.
he kinda did he told me I said it was over but I don’t remember even saying that tbh I think both of us were
I feel your pain. I feel like this is my story. I've now managed to stop looking at his socials, feeds and stories and feel better for it. you won't notice but eventually you say to yourself oh I haven't checked anything today then that's another hurdle you've jumped over. were still good friends so it's hard to not think about him but I don't message him first so I'm getting there but yes, every day is still very much a battle. anytime I feel the urge to message him I just write it in my journal, sometimes I have 5 entries in one day but it's still a win if I haven't sent any to him. keep pushing through
I wish I can literally stop trynna to stalk his socials but it’s really hard and damn you and him are friends my ex has told me numerous times if we break up we can’t be friends at all there’s times I wanna talk to him when he has his story on ig I see it his upset saying stuff I wanna tell him it’s gonna be okay but I stop myself and but I do write in my journal at times last time we broke up it was for two weeks that’s only because I was talking to his mom and this time I haven’t wrote her
@TurboZip895 we have an understanding that we'll keep our friendship because we've known eachother since we were 16yrs old. He's now a performer and has kids, plus works in a shop at night till early morning which is why I chose to break it off because he's too busy for me. I struggle everyday to not ask for hug because I miss his touch but I also think he's probably waiting for me to crumble. He's fully aware how much I love him and want to marry him, I'm so unhappy right now but what else can I do if he doesn't have time for me. I'm writing in my journal every emotion I feel to stop myself asking to see him. It's hard I'm not going to lie 🤥
i was putting my phone in another room at night and writing down the exact urges i had instead of acting on them. not perfect, just less painful.
damn I can’t do that I have to be around my phone but I would understand did it actually help you ??
i went through the same thing with someone i thought i’d marry too. couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, kept checking his socials like it was my job. that kind of on-off messes with your whole nervous system. you’re not crazy, you’re hurt.
I’m very much hurt I try to act like I’m okay but deep down inside I’m so much hurt I love him I can’t see myself with anyone eles but him so it does suck I know he could probably be talking to other girls I’m just here hurting I’m just assuming idk if he really is I play stuff in my head to make it seem real
Our brain translate heartbreak as physical pain that's why it's hurt and lead you to spam messages. Also, it's been your daily routine to talk with him, voice call etc. But then the routine suddenly disappeared.
I can understand why you turned this way, so am I. But try putting the phone down. Do other things, make yourself busy. Perhaps start planning the business you wanted to do, or do arts. Anything that you like. Enjoy life and create new routine. You will miss him and wanting to text him in your journey of healing. I would say, go ahead. Do whatever you feels you wanted to do.
But trust me, at the end of the day, you will realised all of these are emotionally exhausting. You might not understand what I'm trying to say right now but you will experience all of these soon
yeah it’s everyday 24.7 routine it was long distance tho but that didn’t stop me we made plans to see each other I was very close to his mom which really sucks tbh because that was the first ever relationship I ever had closeness from someone’s mom she would literally call me daughter in law out of all relationships that one I wanted so bad I’m so used to sleeping with him on FaceTime now I don’t do that I can’t ever do that with someone else life sucks doesn’t I just want him I’m sure u still want ur person but you are right I should create a new routine
@TurboZip895 Yeah it does sucks, I can understand. And ofc at times I do feels like I wanted him back. But as days goes by, I started to list down his red flags 😂. Then I asked myself, do I want him back because the pain of getting rejected or I ACTUALLY want him?
And I'm gonna be living with all of his red flags for the rest of my life. Yikes, thank goodness God pushes him out of my life.
But I get it. Sometimes there are days that I feels like I want him back in my life. But it's actually more towards I want to re-live the memories back. Trust me when you're about to get your period or during your period, you will get relapsed SO. BAD. But dont worry, everything will passes by as times flew