why can't I stop

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I've reset this no contact clock more then 5 times in the past 3 months
every time it feels like I'm starting over
sometimes it makes me feel better to just hear from him talk to him but then the days after I just cry
my heart breaks every time and every time I feel alittle hope and then realize I mean nothing to him anymore đź’”

Last updated on:2026-01-05T20:49:48+05:30

Comments (8)

magnum
magnum 10 mths ago

when you do reach out and hear from him, what are you hoping it’ll give you in that moment?

ladyT
ladyT 10 mths ago

honestly I want him to say we can try and he will change and do better

healing26
healing26 10 mths ago

what makes you unable to block communication with him?

ladyT
ladyT 10 mths ago

the fact that he was my best friend I want to call him for every little thing

leavehope
leavehope 10 mths ago

i reset no contact so many times i lost count. every reply from him felt like oxygen, then the crash after was brutal. that hope part? that’s the sharpest pain.

ladyT
ladyT 10 mths ago

I feel like I'm addicted to him even after everything his done to me

letitgo_user
letitgo_user 10 mths ago

He broke up with me two years ago, and for two years I cut off all contact, then I'd go back, only to have my heart broken. I'd discover there was no hope for him, that I was unimportant, that I was living in a fantasy. And so the cycle continued. But seven days ago, I made a decision, and I hope I'll stick to it as the new year begins: to respect myself and my decision not to contact him. He hasn't made a single move in the last two years. So, I advise you not to contact him again because it hasn't worked. It took me two years and many days to realize that. If he loved you, he wouldn't do this; he would be the one to try, not the other way around.
love your self You deserve someone better❤️

ladyT
ladyT 10 mths ago

thank you so much and I'm sorry you had to go through all that pain
I sent him a happy new year message and he left me on read with no reply I think that the last straw I won't contact him again I have to accept i mean nothing to him and he only contacted me in the past 3 months because he was lonely and horny and I made the mistake to sleep with him 3 times but I hope this year I can be stronger