i haven’t posted on here for a long time, mainly because i was trying to focus on my relationship that i had just got back. i thought i had it all under control and i was ready to be in such a commitment to someone and i was strong for about a month, but it was so undescribably hard to handle. i had so much anxiety even just waking up and remembering i had a boyfriend. the commitment of texting everyday, hanging out, having our relationship public to people at school. it got too much. i broke up with him just 2 days ago and im really proud of myself for lasting so long and giving it a real shot.

i also just don’t think hes the right guy for me, im only young and ive realised im not going to meet the right person in school and i need to explore and learn. i feel this weight lifted off my chest and i can finally breathe and feel calm. we still have each other on social media and im kind of glad because although i dont want him as my boyfriend i dont want to loose him all together and im scared hes not gonna want to be in my life, which is understandable i did just breakup with him. i just thought i would update everyone here who remembers my journey as well as ask if you think i made the right decision on breaking up with him?