day 5
I'm scared so scared l don't know what I'm going to do without him I wish l could unblock him and apologise for what l said but l can't because l feel like his actions where a way to show me he doesn't want me anymore n I'm tired of feeling desperate and fighting for the relationship alone a simple phone call would fix it a heartfelt conversation between us would fix it but l can't because I want him to choose me for once l can't always be the one carrying the emotional weight of the relationship it's killing fast and hard I wish he loved me the same way l loved him
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its so difficult I've done this and we got back together for 2 weeks then it all fell apart yesterday, so I've had double heartbreak, i don't know what will happen next but I know I felt better apart from him, I didn't feel stressed or ignored or desperate anymore although I missed things about our relationship i was crying everyday when I was with him because I always felt I was begging for attention..its hard to advise as only you really know how you feel
when you picture unblocking him and apologising, do you feel relief… or do you feel like you’d be shrinking yourself again just to keep him?
i hear how badly you want him to choose you.
blocked him, unblocked him, typed the apology a thousand times, deleted it every time. i kept thinking one call would save us, but deep down i knew i was the only one still fighting. carrying all that emotional weight alone is EXHAUSTING. it broke me before i finally admitted it.
girl, distract yourself. watch a feel good movie, bake your favorite dessert, journal, go shopping! If he really loves you, he will make a way to contact you even though you blocked him. but for now, focus on your happiness and peace ❤️
I know you’re hurting, and I know you love him. But love isn’t supposed to feel like begging for a phone call or carrying everything alone. His silence and actions are already an answer, even if it’s not the one you want. If he wanted to choose you, he would be showing it, without you having to chase, apologise, or break yourself. Wanting effort isn’t desperation, it’s the bare minimum. Please don’t shrink yourself or your worth just to keep someone who isn’t fighting for you the same way. You deserve someone who chooses you without being convinced.