Day 22: finally letting go after waiting

it takes 21 days to build a habit or break it, i had to break the habit of him, and 21 days with no contact, it all happened, yesterday i went to our usual meeting place, where he used to pick me up and we'd go to hang out or somewhere else, i went to that place, only and only to remind myself and to engrave it in my mind that no he is not coming, i stood there for a few minutes, waited for him like i used to wait before, i just wanted to tell myself that this is REALLY over, and ofcourse he didn't arrive...i turned back, and i started crying but i felt lighter, because there was certainity now that no he is not gonna be here..he will never come back...i wanted that hope to die, and it did.
i stopped waiting for him
i stopped thinking of how he is gonna return
because he won't.
and i deserve better than just waiting around for someone who left me.. who abandoned me... and never cared how i might be feeling..
i got my answer.
i got my closure.
i accepted.

Last updated on:2026-03-30T17:30:06+05:30

Comments (3)

Fs12490
Fs12490 a mth ago

what did it feel like in your body when you walked away that time… was it more relief or just quiet emptiness?

Jackfruit0
Jackfruit0 a mth ago

this actually took guts.

Flybri080
Flybri080 a mth ago

i’ve done something like this… went back to the exact spot we used to meet just to prove to myself he wasn’t coming. stood there way longer than i should’ve, hoping for a miracle i knew wouldn’t happen. walking away hurt like hell but yeah… that kind of closure hits different