It was the first time I ever felt truly loved by someone. I never even had that kind of love growing up, so when I finally experienced it, it meant everything to me. He was genuinely the perfect boyfriend. He gave me his time without me ever needing to ask, and he loved me even when I was harsh and unkind to him for two whole years.
I took the relationship for granted, like no matter how I behaved, he would always stay. But slowly, because of my anger and how I treated him, I broke something in him. I can’t even explain how deeply he loved and cared for me. He was never late to our dates, he worked five days a week and still dedicated his weekends entirely to me, and he even adjusted his work leaves around my college schedule.
He made me feel safe in a way I had never felt before, and yet I still ended up ruining it little by little. The sweet boy I once had is now so distant and cold. He won’t even look at me when I cry. I’ve spent months begging him to stay, but he just can’t anymore.
I try to go no contact, but I end up texting him within a day. He’s still kind. He replies and asks what I need, but I know I overwhelmed him and never gave him the space he needed. I love him so much, and I hate myself for pushing him away.
Last updated on:2026-04-14T20:21:03+05:30
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you feel like you’re reaching out to him because you miss him, or because you’re trying to undo what happened?
i’ve been on your side of this, where i took someone’s love for granted and thought he’d always stay no matter how i acted. watching him slowly pull away after giving me EVERYTHING… that broke me in a way i didn’t expect
I'm in the same situation as you dear, my heart is breaking 😔
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