Our 5 year of relationship ended just like that and he has never been the one to reach out first so I don't even expect it anymore. It's over for good.
Its been over a month now and I can't imagine me without him. He was like my family. He was my family. But even after you fight with your family you know they're still there, still connected you still have them out there, somewhere. That's not the case here.
It breaks my heart to think I'll never be able to talk to him, I can't see him, I have no right over him, I can't make plans with him, he is no longer a part of my future, I cry everyday thinking I can never meet him, he's no longer mine. I cry over plans that no longer have any future, the promises, the to-do list, our dreams they no longer carry any meaning. Why did this had to happen to me. I did nothing wrong. This time I'm not reaching out, crying desperately because this is what he wants, this is what I always do but I now have realised I mean nothing to him, there's no point reaching out. I know he was my first and my last. I plan to be as selfish and love only myself.
Last updated on:2026-04-15T21:03:03+05:30
Comments (5)
you feel like you’re grieving him more, or the future you had built together with him
i know that urge to break and text them, i used to do it every time.
i do think you will be able to move on if you think about you and what you can do to better you’re self for the next relationship so you can love them
oh 5 years and then just silence, like they just disappear from your life completely. i went through that too, and the hardest part was realizing they don’t reach out because they’re okay with the distance
:((( Really feel you. Give yourself everything you wish he would give you. It wont feel as fulfilling at first but you gotta do it.