Today was one of those hard adult days. Full of overwhelming task, and hard decisions. So many times throughout it I wanted to break no contact. I wanted to lean on him. To hear him say you've got this. Just anything from him would help. it would 100% be selfish, bc I am the one that went no contact... I blocked. I removed. we were in a toxic cycle. I know we both need to heal, but it hurts.
any advice or even just kind words.
Last updated on:2026-06-19T18:01:53+05:30
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the hardest moments weren't the lonely nights, it was the random adult problems where my first thought was still "i need to tell him." losing your person and your comfort place at the same time HURTS.
he quickly became my best friend. he held my secrets. he encouraged and gave safety and man, this moment snuck out of no where and HURT.
missing the support doesn't always mean i miss the relationship. on my worst days i wanted the version of him who made me feel safe, but i had to remember why i chose no contact in the first place.
that. I wanted the version of him that made me feel safe. the one that did show up. the part of him. but then im ignoring the why.
thank you
when you wanted to reach out today, was it because you needed HIM specifically, or because you needed someone familiar to tell you everything was going to be okay?
Him specifically. I have amazing people i leaned on instead, but I wanted him. the version of him that made me feel safe.
You need to start telling yourself "you've got this". Be your own cheerleader. Be the comfort and care to yourself like he once was. Pour all that love back into yourself. You got this ❤️
I really do. thank youu. 🥺