Why am i fighting so hard for us?

do you think he’s ever going to see me fighting this hard and wonder why?

wonder why i keep kicking and screaming?

it’s because of the people around me.

it’s because i refuse to let us become that.

i refuse to let us grow up resenting one another. i refuse to let shit just stay under the surface.

i don’t know what he’s thinking. But I can’t let this house kill me, too. we both began loving one another in our teens. we’re 21 now.

it’s toxic, it’s twisted; I don’t want him to go about life without me.

Last updated on:2026-05-14T12:21:02+05:30

Comments (7)

gamertech
gamertech a mth ago

this part about “i can’t let this house kill me too” really stuck with me. do you feel like the relationship itself became toxic, or the environment around both of you did?

infinitejax
infinitejax a mth ago

it’s just the places we are and how we are as people.

TDHKL
TDHKL a mth ago

loving someone since your teens does something to your brain. i fought SO hard in my last relationship too because i couldn’t stand the idea of us becoming strangers after growing up side by side

infinitejax
infinitejax a mth ago

it’s been almost five years plus knowing one another and I think going into my actual life without him is enough to make me want to throw up

HappyRide760
HappyRide760 a mth ago

you need to think what’s best for you and decide. Are you better off alone to find someone better or do you wanna keep doing this toxic relationship for the rest of your life?

infinitejax
infinitejax a mth ago

the relationship itself isn’t toxic. But where we are right now? absolutely is.

Christi
Christi a mth ago

make 2 of us