I don’t know how to feel or what to feel right now.
he’s told me dozens of times in the past that the day he was done, the day we were over, he would block me and walk away. I would know when we were over.
I saw he reposted something about abuse and commented ‘this was my last relationship’ and I texted him in a panic because I didn’t know he felt like that. He replied when I said I wanted to block him because I didn’t know if he didn’t care about me anymore. I didn’t feel anything. he told me to move on and he said he knew he was good, he knew things were going to hurt. but I don’t think he’s moved on. or he doesn’t love me anymore lol.
he said he doesn’t have romantic feelings anymore and I asked if that was the truth and he was evasive about it. he told me to stop caring and that my love would always come with hurt. but he also told me he didn’t really believe people could change and I begged him for a chance to earn him back and he told me he didn’t want that. but it’s barely been a month but he keeps saying he’s done defensively. He hasn’t blocked me. he hasn’t let me go. he hasn’t done anything that would make me think he doesn’t care, doesn’t love me anymore, besides keeping distance and trying to push me away.
he just doesn’t say it but I know his brain isn’t in a decent space rn. he updates his statuses on social media that he told me he only uses for me anyway. just so I have updates or it’s to hurt me, it’s one or the other. he doesn’t say it but he would’ve blocked me everywhere. he doesn’t say anything but when I told him to tell me he doesn’t love me or doesn’t care about me anymore, and pointed out the fact that he would’ve blocked me if he didn’t, he ended the conversation by going to bed.
Our anniversary is in two days. Am I screwed lol
Last updated on:2026-05-19T20:05:13+05:30
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the part where he told you to stop caring but still keeps leaving these breadcrumbs would mess with anybody’s head.
heavily fucked up because of it right now lol.
that exact spiral of trying to decode every little thing. the reposts, the statuses, the “i’m done” comments that somehow still feel loaded. i remember convincing myself that if he still watched my stories or didn’t block me, then there had to still be love there somewhere
it’s worse because you know the person. you know how they sound and what they do say when they mean things. and it’s obvious he doesn’t lol
do you think part of you is holding onto the fact he hasn’t blocked you because it feels easier than fully facing what he already said out loud about not wanting the relationship anymore
maybe, I don’t know.
Is that what you want for the rest of your life? Like let's be so honest. Even if he is trying to pull the ego game... Do you want to be treated like crap just because he has the emotional intelligence of a 3 year old? What if you had kids with him, what is he just going to walk out on them too and choose when to love them or not?