Why do i still check our messages after the breakup?

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i had a mild panic attack the other day when i happened to see the messages in our convo thread deleted. i thought he deleted the thread, but it might be due to the app starting to auto delete it since it was in the blocked folder. i managed to restore it by unblocking him temporarily. yes, i still would like to read through the messages someday. but today, I'm feeling differently about him. much more anger.

Last updated on:2026-05-23T22:40:57+05:30

Comments (4)

heymarj
heymarj a mth ago

the latter. i need it to exist for me since i know he's actively to forget everything (if it has not happened yet)

tornheart1
tornheart1 a mth ago

i kept old messages for YEARS because part of me was scared i’d forget the version of them that once loved me. the anger stage hit me later too and honestly it felt more real than the sadness.

TDHKL
TDHKL a mth ago

i get why you restored it. sometimes deleting everything all at once feels way too final.

sunset1
sunset1 a mth ago

when you thought the messages were gone says a lot 😭 do you think you miss HIM right now or the comfort of having proof that it all happened