Why numbness is creeping in after my breakup
and i let it
and i let it
i had a mild panic attack the other day when i happened to see the messages in our convo thread deleted. i thought he deleted the thread, but it might be due to the app starting to auto delete it sinc
So yesterday I met up with a friend whom I haven't seen for a long time. Of course, I told her about the ex. I cried, and laughed. On the way home, we passed by his workplace and I pointed it out to h
I know he tried hard to fight and defend me against the voices in his head because he told me so. But that was then when I also realized there was no winning. It's been 20 days and it still cuts deep
of course, I'm still thinking about him. maybe he unconsciously self-sabotaged himself from having a healthy relationship. he could have peace/stability with me but chose to have an affair with a marr
- I actually went to our parish priest for healing counseling 2 weeks ago. It helped a lot. - I'm on my 2nd novena to pray for my ex's mental health. (I really couldn't do anything regarding him but t
- I totally blocked him from messaging and calling me and blocked his email address - I set all my blogs to private right after the breakup, but my twitter was still up for days, altho I'd been keepin
So I broke contact the other day. I didn't initiate but responded to him sending a "proof" of me cheating on him. (Entirely false) I know I should have ignored it, as a non-response is the best thing
"If someday he's stable, and I'm strong, maybe we can meet in a healthier space." Maybe, I'll see the stars then.
it doesn't hurt much anymore. i can now look back at the happy (or at least not chaotic) times we were together and not having to ask repeatedly, "why did it end this way?" i realized a while ago that