of course, I'm still thinking about him. maybe he unconsciously self-sabotaged himself from having a healthy relationship. he could have peace/stability with me but chose to have an affair with a married woman. and he couldn't handle the consequences and started being unreasonably suspicious of me and having full-blown delusions later. i still wish for him to be free of his cage even if I'm not in his life anymore to witness that if it ever happens
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i honestly think there’s something really human about still wishing good things for him while also knowing you couldn’t survive inside that relationship anymore.
when you say he started having delusions and getting suspicious of you, did it feel like guilt eating him alive or did it feel bigger and darker than that?
Both. I might able to say more about this later
i stayed way too long with someone who kept creating chaos where there could’ve been peace, and the paranoia after she betrayed me. it’s such a weird kind of grief when you still want freedom and healing for someone who hurt you
sounds like he needs a lot of healing. Maybe he feels he doesn't deserve a healthy relationship.