I was feeling anxious and kinda numb, I tried sleep it off but the feeling is so strong, I listen to song and the feeling grows stronger, next thing I know it was the anniversary of our last talk, The Closure-that i never ask for which ended on her terms instead of our terms, it was good term for her but it was bad term for me because it's just not fair how the decision and weighs of the fates heavily balanced on her. That day my former self died, next morning I woke up fully dead, thriving to complete the group assignment, while I shoulda sleep it off to relief my mental breakdown, but I forced myself to work. It was the worst mental breakdown ever, I didn't eat for days, I was shivering all the time, my heart pumping like a patient, To this day, I always wondered how your life turns out and after all of that I still love and miss you.
Last updated on:2026-05-27T06:19:41+05:30
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anniversaries of last conversations hit WAY harder than people expect.
i’m glad you’re still here honestly. when my breakup wrecked me physically like this, not eating, shaking, barely sleeping, i finally told one real person how bad it had gotten instead of carrying it alone. that helped more than pretending i was functioning.
i keep thinking about the part where you said the closure happened on her terms only. did you ever actually get to say everything you wanted to say back then or did you mostly just survive it quietly?
Originally i have no words, because the she I was yearning for no longer exist, the she that talked to me that night was very different, she changed, I did let out the side of my story till I even cried out about it towards her, what sucks is that the last talk was in a discord vc-I did all the let it all out so my goal on that day was to bring her back, to get back, but no after I told her it's worthless that I wasted my words and tears for this, she only said that it cleared everything up, and next thing I know she make me promised to not kms. That night was so tiring
Sometimes our love never fades, but our ability to move forward in life continues. I hope your days become brighter and less heavy ❤️
I'm sorry for your pain so far down the road. I do hope you found some healing in the process.