day 38, but I unblocked him on day 31, I waited for him to write to me and he didn't. Today I blocked him again. The fact that he doesn't write to me is obsessing me, I feel like the first few days. I look at his social networks and I can't help myself, I'm stuck with this validation thing
I'm afraid I won't be able to get over it. I need his validation and to feel like I mattered. It hurts that he doesn't do anything to keep from losing me. I know he can't do more, emotionally speaking, I'm aware of everything, but I'm stuck with this obsession.
Sometimes I feel like I can't stand missing him anymore, that I want to see him, to talk. But I also know that it hurts me, that it gets me upset when we talk, that he doesn't understand me. It hurts me that I can't get over it and that I'm not attracting anything good for myself
I tried to focus on myself, I worked out, I blocked him, I analyzed the whole situation. I know that it would be best not to contact him again. It's not the first time I've been in no contact, every 2-3 weeks I block him because I can't stand it anymore. This has lasted the longest.
It annoys me that I'm having such a hard time. I know I'm superior to him in every way, I know he doesn't appreciate me, and yet I can't get over it and it's so frustrating.
Last updated on:2026-06-02T18:03:11+05:30
Comments (5)
when you imagine him finally reaching out, what do you think you'd want him to say that would make this hurt less
day 38 is longer than you seem to be giving yourself credit for.
i spent months checking for a message that never came, convincing myself that one text would prove i mattered. the silence became its own obsession and that part HURT more than i wanted to admit.
I agree and did the same thing. You need to remember that your time is valuable too. If he is too busy then so are you. You are too valuable to be worried if he is texting you.
you need to keep him blocked or delete him. your emotions will stop spiraling when you stop checking up on him and focus on yourself. I suggest a hobby reading or something you like doing. go outside for a walk once and awhile for fresh air. go talk and hang out with some friends or family.