It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep for some reason. I just thought of the day that my ex and I broke up.
It happened at his place. It took less than thirty minutes. We said some nice things about each other, holding hands, and then he walked me to the train station.
It had been dry the entire month of march but it rained that day, the second we stepped out. I remember making a comment about how it felt like the universe is crying with us. He agreed & said he was thinking the same thing. We had this inside joke, early on in the relationship, where we would say that the universe is trying to keep us apart & how we had to fight to be together (since we were long distance first 3 months).
When the train approached, he hugged me goodbye and then kissed me for the last time. I got on the train and as it pulled out of the station, I waved goodbye for the last time.
I think about "what if I didn't get on the train so fast". And I just stayed there longer and spent more time with him. It hadn't sunk in for me that was going to be the last time we would ever see each other. But I rushed onto the train to get home, and he didn't ask me to stay longer.
Last updated on:2026-06-06T01:53:11+05:30
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i still replay my last goodbye too, down to the weather and the exact look on his face. the hardest part was realizing i didn't know it was THE last time while i was living it.
if i'd stayed another ten minutes, another hour, i'd probably still be wondering if i should've stayed longer. my brain kept trying to rewrite the ending because i wasn't ready for it.
are you missing that final moment and wishing you'd had more time to understand it was goodbye?