Why i’m learning to let go after 8 days

It's day 8 today since we last spoke. My heart still feels heavy at times and memories come and go throughout my day. Some nights I still cry myself a little to sleep at the thought of what we had and what it could have been. But now I feel a little firmer. Like it sort of becomes the norm that he won't text. I dont find myself looking at my phone and waiting for that text to pop up. I might still want it to, for the connection to keep going but I no longer expect it and become disappointed when it doesn't happen. It feels weird that I'm not blocked on anything. Our numbers still saved and a following beside each our names on Instagram. It almost feels like he didn't block or delete me to mess with me more. Like he wanted to give me hope that he will come back. Maybe that is the truth. Maybe he wants a door open if he ever chooses to want me again. If it happened now I probably wouldn't be strong enough to deny but I feel like with time I'll laugh at the offer. I keep going with my life, currently on holidays and trying to make the most of it. Im still very active on social media, this time for myself. Capturing and posting all the amazing moments. He hasn't viewed my story since day 1 but has been posting himself. It took two days before i stopped viewing. Then after day 4 he stopped posting. Today is day 8, I woke up to a story from him on Instagram. The urge to click was no longer there. And not because I wanted him to chase or how him I wasnt watching. This time, I really wasn't interested in knowing what he was up to because for the past week he didn't care how much I was hurting. I've realised memories and desire for him will come and go through this healing phase but I've learned that its okay to admit that you're still thinking about them since its so recent, but you can't let those thoughts consume you and lead your life. You simply acknowledge your feelings and go do something for yourself

Last updated on:2026-06-06T21:33:12+05:30