Day 10 today. I'm in pieces. I spend all night hysterically crying over him. It was so bad I had to take sleeping pills to fall asleep. My mind kept replaying the moment we first met, the jokes we had etc. I was trying to figure out what I did wrong. My appetite has disappeared as well and I dont want to eat anything. I want to text him so badly. I went onto our chat and read some of the old messages. Even listened to the voice messages he sent me. Gosh I missed hearing his voice. I chuckled at one of them when he started off with "hey stinky face" as a joke. I thought about texting him, my hands ready to type out a message. It said he is active and for a minute I almost gave in. I'm struggling because I'm still fighting the desire for him so everyday when there is no text I get upset. People say men always come back but then why is he not back yet? Honestly I don't even care if i make a fool of myself again just to text but the only thing keeping me from doing that is the thought that id piss him off with it.
Last updated on:2026-06-15T14:04:19+05:30
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I had to be medicated that’s how bad I was I wasn’t sleeping I wasn’t eating I was having panic attacks I was a mess
old chats and voice messages where he was still calling you "stinky face" and making you feel loved?
it was just the way he talked, we had this banter where we both insulted each other but it wasnt mean or anything
when i wanted to text him the most, that was usually when i needed to wait the longest. every message i didn't send felt impossible at the time, but i'm glad i gave myself space before acting on that urge.
hmm staring at the little "active now" bubble on my ex's profile and feeling like my whole night depended on whether he messaged me. those old voice notes were my weakness too.
your significant other may not come back. my ex broke my trust, and used me and threw me away even of she came to me begging id not get back with her I think.
you should take this time to focus on yourself and busy yourself so you dont keep spiraling out of control with your emotions. once your calm perhaps maybe there is a chance he reaches out you never know.