everytime I see her face I miss her. I accidentally saw her new TikTok and checked the comments. she seemed so full of joy. I know it's just a mask she's wearing so people don't think she's upset. because she called me in tears a few days ago and she constantly posts on her story and notes on Instagram hoping I'll see. but I stopped opening her story. and I know we broke up for the better. I wasn't benefiting from the relationship at all. I picked up urges and habits that hurt me, I was unhappy constantly and the way I'd deal with the unhappiness was by getting temporary happiness from her. even though she was the reason I was upset. I became dependant on her, now I'm happy and I know this is the right choice. but some small moments like this make me feel sad. idk why.
Last updated on:2026-06-08T06:22:11+05:30
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when you see her looking happy, do you miss HER, or do you miss the version of the relationship you kept hoping it could become?
i wasn't upset that she was happy, i was upset that i still cared. those are two very different things, and one of them fades with time.
i knew my relationship was making me miserable and i was happier after it ended, but seeing my ex smile online still felt like someone pressing on a bruise. it didn't mean i wanted them back, i just wasn't fully done grieving yet.