so I reached out on Monday. and we talked a bit. we re added each other on Snapchat. she drew the line and said just friends. I guess that’s all I could hope for. I still wish I could be with her. but I keep that to myself. she told me to apply for a position at her work. I applied and they want me to come in for an interview. I refuse to select an interview time. I can’t afford to work with her. god forbid I have an anxiety attack on the job. especially since it’s already an anxious work setting. I don’t know what I’m gonna tell her when she asks why I haven’t done an interview yet. I’m terrified. I don’t want her to leave even in the just friends capacity. I wish I could text her all day like we used to. now I feel wierd reaching out even to say how was your day. I don’t even know how I got into this if it’s a good or bad thing. ik it’s not the healthiest to hold out hope like this. it’s not like I got much else going for me. I feel like I’m holding her back but idk.
Last updated on:2026-06-11T23:17:35+05:30
Comments (5)
if it hurts your nervous system, that should be all the answer you need.
I know it seems impossible to go no contact or to not be friends but I think your body is already telling you "not anymore"
if she texted tomorrow and said she wanted to get back together, would you take her back right away? or is there a part of you that knows this friendship is mostly keeping the hope alive?
being honest with myself about what i could actually handle. i kept calling it friendship, but really i was waiting and hoping. once i admitted that, some things got clearer.
i stayed friends with someone i still loved and every conversation felt like getting a tiny piece of them back while knowing i couldn't have the whole thing.
I hope you heal and move forward sooner than later. I’m struggling so bad.