Why does it still hurt after a year?

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I thought I'd moved on, but my sister reminded me of how my ex left me, and I started crying so much till my eyes got swollen, and I texted him and told him that he is no man because he never kept a promise and told him to stop reaching out because not a month has passed this year without him texting me once or twice for a whole year to blow a fuse and pretend that "I just want to heal your wound." Anyway, I regret deleting my email because all the data on this app was deleted, and I just want to save my progress.
I think I cried now not because I love him; I don't, but it feels disrespectful and a foolish choice of me to date such a guy. I truly regret that.

Last updated on:2026-07-03T20:47:12+05:30

Comments (3)

lovedosh
lovedosh 3 wks ago

i'm glad you told him to stop reaching out. i stayed stuck until i finally closed every door he kept leaving open. protecting my peace felt cruel at first, but it was the first thing that actually helped me heal.

thoughts
thoughts 3 wks ago

i had a breakdown almost a year after my breakup too because one memory brought everything back. i wasn't crying because i wanted him back, i was grieving the version of me that accepted so much less than i deserved.

brokefeather
brokefeather 3 wks ago

do you think what hurts most now is what he did to you, or the fact that he keeps pulling you back every time you're finally starting to feel okay?