i got cheated on, lied to gaslit, manipulated, and in the end she left me with some really hurtful words. but somehow i still care about her i still love her.
it was my first love so maybe that’s why it hits this hard. i still find myself wishing her well and hoping she does good in life.
it makes me question myself sometimes like why do i still feel this way after everything.
Last updated on:2026-04-16T11:23:02+05:30
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It's the memory you miss
you think it’s her you miss, or the version of her you held onto before everything went wrong?
my first love hurt me bad too, lied and twisted things, and i STILL caught myself wishing her well like nothing changed… it messed with my head so much
Exactly what I am going through ahh
You have the right to feel however you want to feel love just does not go away. You’re not crazy. My love did exactly the same as yours has done but mine had a lot more included and children involved. I’m not perfect. I will say that, but I will always still love him, but still be very angry how it ended
it's because your addicted brain thinks it needs her as source of dopamine and other feel good juices. So it makes sure to present her in the best possible light to trick you into getting what it wants. Same mechanic as a battered wife loving her abuser. Dont trust these feelings.