i miss everything about her the chaos the way she was all of it every single day. it’s hard to even put into words and deep down i know she doesn’t feel the same anymore. but instead of sitting in that sadness i try to imagine a version of life where things turned out differently where we’re still together and at peace.
in that space i just watch us like we never lost each other like we get to grow old side by side. until i can fully let go of what’s real i find myself staying there holding onto that version of us.
Last updated on:2026-04-27T17:22:03+05:30
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i was catching myself when i drift into that version and gently pulling back, reminding myself why it ended even if it hurts to admit
I understand why you're doing it, but believe me it only keeps you stuck in a loop and prevents you from healing properly.
staying in that imagined version is helping you get through the day, or is it starting to keep you stuck there
i used to live in those “other versions” too where we were still okay, still us. it felt safer there than facing the fact he was really gone