I am dwelling on regret. I'll make the story simple. I stayed, I understand her more, I deeply loved her. I know I have flaws and she has too. I loved her that I make her my world, I gave up everything, my needs, my family just to be with her. I sacrificed my dream, a future I want to build with myself. I have to resigned from my work just to take care of her needs in our little home. I became a full housewife just for her, I did all of that. I have flaws too, I am anxious, I am not like this even before she made me anxious, I tolerated all the disrespects. I never cheated or talked to some other guy or girl. Even if she started to hurt me physically, emotionaly, and verbally. I have only attitude it's also because of her, attitude of calming the situations and talking to her in a way that I won't offend or trigger anything to her. I did all of that just to stay in a situations, I never appreciated or loved. She did loved me, she gave something to me, she even introduced me to her family. But love is enough in a relationship if you slowly become alone to work the relationship. I am losing myself in relationships. Also she left me and choose the girl she just met online. She left me abruptly. Like she just break up with me all of a sudden and never respected our relationship at all. I beg, and beg for us to fixed it. But she already loved the other girl for a shortest moment of time. She did everything to her. Like me I am so scared to ask for money to buy something for myself, yet she just give it easily to someone she just met. I left in pain, I left in regret, I accepted it. And she came back begging to me, I accepted her wholy again as if we just break up yesterday. And it happened again, she left me, I kept begging, until she shut me down with blocking and she is doing fine without me.While I am here, dwelling in regret that I don't know why, grieving the pain, asking why she did that, wondering what I did wrong the she kept saying she don't want to suffer anymore from my attitude when I am talking to her calmly in every argument and situations. I know, I have flaws too, I know I am not perfect all I know is I love her so much. But here I am in pain, sadness envelope me. She came from a 12 years relationship, her ex choose to marry a man and leave her while she is doing something for her. I met her after that she just finished her rigorous training and came from break up. I talked to her to ease the pain until she ask me to be my suitor,I agree and after all she did to me to gain my trust and my love I accepted her. We become one. Which one is wrong? me that I know she just came from a break up of 12 years or her? She even confess to me that she make me a rebound only a months and started to love me. She fell first but I fell harder. And here I am, crying, things got hard to me every day. I am so dependent on her. What should I do? What do I need to do ? I am not forcing myself to move on faster, I want this regret of losing her to be gone. Please help me.
Last updated on:2026-04-30T14:54:56+05:30
Comments (4)
are you safe right now… like away from her and the physical stuff, or is there still any contact happening
I deleted all my accounts, she choose to block my mother , she still have the audacity to do that after all she did to me. I still defended her to my family that she is a good person and that maybe she doesn't want me anymore, a person that cared for her even after everything she did. I am not going for revenge, I just don't know why I am dwelling on regret.
i gave up pieces of my life for someone too, kept shrinking myself just to keep the peace, even when it started hurting me. when they left like it was nothing, that part broke something in me
what did you do to help yourself? any advice it's my first time, she was my greatest love. I need some things that would make me feel okay somehow