Why i’m finally healing after no contact

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Three weeks no contact, and my emotions are regulated, I'm thinking logically, and I'm hopeful for the future. maybe I still have a few stages of grief to cycle through, but I've accepted it.

The breakup was amicable... he said he wants to be friends, but breadcrumbed me for a few weeks before he blocked me on everything, without mentioning/discussing any boundaries or timing.
I think he was overwhelmed, busy with work, struggling with long distance etc. It was sudden and confusing so I ruminated and fixated on every word to try and make sense of it. He might have avoidant attachment issues, he might just be being nice, avoiding conflict, doesn't know how to handle his emotions, might just not like me, and so on. It doesn't excuse his behaviour or how he handled the situation, but I was stuck looking for answers.

At this point, I can trust his words and assume he'll contact me when he's ready, or evaluate his actions and accept that he's done and moving on with his life. Either way, nothing I can do.

The lack of closure and control has been difficult, but the time and space I've had during no contact has been incredibly healing. Initially it felt like I was being punished (sat on the naughty step), but I know it was for the best for both of us.
I feel much better now, without clinging onto breadcrumbs and mixed messages. And I hope he's been feeling safer in the space he made for himself.

Still a little sad about the situation, I love him and I miss him, and I know he loves me too, or at least he did - and I'm happy it happened.

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