I really want to text her.
We broke up over a month ago... She told me straight out that she didn't want to feel the pressure of a relationship because she didn't have the strength for it right now. We still lived together for a while, but I could see her pulling away from me; she wanted to cuddle, we slept together, but she didn't tell me she loved me anymore—she was emotionally distant...
It hurt me, and after two weeks I decided to move out... It was hard for both of us... Now I’m constantly wrestling with the thought of whether I could have stayed after all... Maybe things could have worked out for us back then...
Now we’re not in touch—I was the one who asked for it, because when I wrote to her, I got the impression that she’s happier now, that she’s come to terms with the breakup... And it hurts me so damn much... I’m tempted to write to her, but I know that if I let my emotions out, it’ll only get worse... And just being in contact with her hurts me...
On the other hand, I feel like I’m losing my only chance to be with her... I can’t come to terms with what happened... She wanted me close, but not as a partner, just as a friend... What hurt me the most was when she said I’d definitely find someone new...
I feel like a fool... I’m drawn to someone who’s basically telling me she doesn’t want me in her life... I’m trying to focus on myself, but even the simplest activity—like drawing, which is my hobby—is difficult for me. Please help me figure this out somehow... I can’t let it go
Last updated on:2026-05-04T23:29:03+05:30
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when i wanted to text, i wrote everything out and didn’t send it. every time i actually reached out, i ended up hurting more because nothing changed on their side.
do you feel like you want to text her because you miss her, or because you’re scared this is your last chance with her?
Maybe a little of both—I miss her because I cared about her so much, I wonder if she’ll ever come back, and I’m afraid she won’t give me another chance, that I’ve lost my last one
m still sharing space, still close physically, but feeling them slip away emotionally.