if i knew that spring would be the last time i saw you, would my heart have changed?
would i have spent every day looking at you a little longer?
straightening my spine and correcting my behavior every chance i got?
if i knew my last time seeing you was going to be in the back of a car, your hand in mine, tears in my eyes, a hug in the TSA terminal and whispered promises, would i have tried harder?
Would I have held on a little longer in that hug, in that promise that we'd graduate and make it, if i knew?
would you have loved me more if you knew that was coming?
or were you already gone?
Last updated on:2026-05-13T19:27:53+05:30
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the “were you already gone?” part really got me. did they start pulling away slowly before that goodbye or did it feel sudden after all those promises?
i don’t know. and i think that’s what been haunting me. was this something that was building or did I personally shove him off that cliff in April’s fight.
i used to replay my “last normal day” with my ex over and over too, like if i had just loved harder or noticed sooner maybe things wouldn’t have fallen apart. those goodbye moments stay in your body for a long time