nothing is worse than the feeling of breaking that no contact with the person you love. blowing up their phone and trying to get their attention in any way conceivable all because a tension in your chest, a thought in your head told you to.
It’s even more embarassing when there’s no reply.
when your moment of shame over a few minutes is witnessed, left on delivered, watched statuses get online; read messages and leave, left on seen.
and even worse knowing that your most genuine self, the one typing those messages shakily, the one hitting ‘call’ on your contact knowing they shouldn’t, listening to your voicemail and wishing they’d hear your voice again some other way, is the mistake here.
that the emotions pouring out and the begging mean nothing. and if they do mean anything, it doesn’t matter when he’s hurting. when the messages only fuck up anything good left in the air.
an awful feeling, to love and be unloved.
Last updated on:2026-05-15T00:39:22+05:30
Comments (7)
this the first time you broke no contact or had this cycle been happening for a while before this
first time I’ve broken it this badly.
honestly i stopped rereading the messages i sent during those moments because i was torturing myself with him
I’ve been trying to get myself to calm myself when I get the thought to send a message. I say I’ll wait another day and see how that goes.
I might try and steal this method too. It’s what I’ve been trying to do as much as possible.
i’ve absolutely been that person staring at the “seen” notification feeling my whole body drop. the shame after pouring your heart out to silence is a different kind of pain
it’s worse when all I wanted was knowledge he still wanted us in the end. we’re on break and I don’t even have that answer. of if at the end of this we’re still going to be hand in hand.