I recently got my stuff back and theres been no communication since. stupidly i do still stalk his socials. I dont know why but it still feels just insane that we dont talk anymore. it feels still crazy how fast he left my life. I get its normal to struggle but I just cant understand how it was so easy for him to erase me. I just had so much love for him and all our memories feel like a lie. everytime he told me he loved me so much feels like it ment nothing because of how easy he threw me away. I just cant understand it. im also just so sick of feeling like this. yes, some days are better than others but lately all ive been feeling is pain.
I think half of me just wants him to reach out. Just so I know 3 years ment something to him. I wish he'd want me back. Just to confirm to myself that he did love me. that 3 years was something real.
but truthfully I dont think I could ever forgive him for the amount of pain ive felt since he left. 3 months of this pain has just really defeated me. sometimes I feel i have progress but most times I feel like I haven't made any.
Last updated on:2026-05-25T02:46:11+05:30
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i think a lot of us secretly want that one message just to prove it mattered to them too.
staring at my ex’s socials thinking “how are you just… fine?” meanwhile i could barely get through the day without crying. the silence after years together feels so unnatural, like your brain still expects them to text any second.
do you think part of what’s keeping you stuck is needing proof from HIM that the relationship was real, instead of trusting what you felt during those 3 years was real for you too?
I also had a 3yr relationship that seems to have ended poorly. I say seems because the significant other didnt even have the respect to tell me we were over. they just blocked me on everything.
I find getting back into my hobbies is helping me cope.
i can understand this feeling.Mind always playing good memories that do not let u forget him.but u need to let go..he is not here anymore so these memories and feeling had to go