I never really had a problem with drinking tlas a coping mechanism, I mean I had few bad situations in my worst stages but it was more drinking to have fun for the last time than to drink my feelings away. I don't even drink that often and I definitely don't drink alone. Ever since the break up I had a lot of thoughts to just drink to not feel all of it and it's strange to me because I've really been through a lot and never had a problem with thoughts like that. I don't know if that's because I am actually able to that because I can legally buy and drink alcohol or is it just because I'm too tired and have to much going on to have time and power to deal with those awful emotions.
I'm writing this hoping for someone to tell me that they had something similar because I'm a highly self-aware person and I can't figure this one fully out so at least I want to feel like I'm not alone and that it can be expected in that situation.
And to be clear - I don't act on those thoughts, I'm just worried since addiction runs in my family in many ways
Last updated on:2026-06-10T04:19:08+05:30
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big hugs
those thoughts show up more when you're missing them specifically, or when everything else in life starts piling on at the same time?
the part that stands out to me is that you're noticing it and not acting on it. when i was exhausted and overwhelmed, my mind kept looking for an exit door too, and sometimes the thought itself scared me more than the urge.
, i relate to this more than i wish i did. after my breakup i suddenly started thinking about drinking just to get a few hours where my brain would shut up, and that had NEVER been my thing before.
How do u feel when you don’t drink?
I didn't really drink since the break up to avoid it becoming a problem but I just feel this heaviness and this constant anxiety like my nervous system knows more than I do and like I'm in a fight or flight mode most of the time and it's not all the time but whenever I have a good moment it will somehow sneak out on me and eventually I end up feeling like this most of the time or just going into survival mode