I never thought I would be here in 355 days of silence from my ex.. he never tried.. he never looked, he blocked me on all social media and never tried to text. I am the one who initiated the no contact but he just walked away and didn’t look back.. over the last year I went through ups and downs of missing him to feeling glad all his chaos and hurt with pain he caused me, all the nervous system disregualtions and all the panic attacks but my heart no matter what, no matter who else I talk to, no matter who I got close to I push away because the missing him never went away. 4 years and we constantly found each other but it’s now hitting me that he is out there somewhere and just didn’t care about me. I have such a deep pit in my stomach because of the yearning for him. I wish I knew how to let go fully and that was still with constant prayer and attending church. My body still wants to look for him everywhere I go 😭 These last couple days have been hard to say the least..
Last updated on:2026-06-15T10:23:11+05:30
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i went almost a year without hearing a word from my ex too, and the hardest part wasn't the silence, it was realizing i was still carrying someone who had already put me down. that ache can stick around way longer than we expect.