the other day I went to a disco for my friends birthday and at the end of the night I met a boy (for 20 minutes) and he insisted on giving me a kiss and I let him and I feel extremely horrible because how could I kiss someone that it's not him, it's only been a month and a half. I don't feel ready at all for nothing with anyone, I let myself get carried away a bit too much, and I know that’s not what I’m looking for, so I explained my situation to the guy and he understood. I don’t want to feel like I’m using him to get over someone else, nor do I want to hurt him.
And even though I know that’s not how I want to act (because I have principles) a part of me wants to feel something and I hate this mixed feelings😭
Last updated on:2026-09-18T03:14:46+05:30
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that weird guilt after kissing someone new when your heart still belongs somewhere else. i remember feeling like one stupid moment meant i was betraying everything i still felt for my ex, and it took me a while to realize it didn’t erase any of it.
i’d be gentle with yourself here. you noticed you weren’t ready, you told the guy honestly, and you didn’t pretend you wanted something you didn’t, that’s a lot more honest than you’re giving yourself credit for.
you actually regret kissing him, or do you mostly hate what that kiss made you realize about how much you still miss your ex?
both
I’d say if your not ready, don’t rush into a relationship, see who you are with out a so and be your own person for a bit. You’ll know it’s right when it’s natural.