Confused by her mixed signals: what does it all mean?

i was with my ex for three years and what we had felt really deep like the strongest emotional and physical connection either of us had. most of it was good but when things got bad they got really intense.
the biggest issue between us was that i want kids someday and she doesn’t.
she ended things in january pretty harshly but came back two weeks later saying she missed me and felt jealous. we started seeing each other again being close and it honestly felt like we never broke up.
then in march after talking to her friends something shifted. she got distant again. on march 15 we had a final goodbye she was crying holding me for a long time saying she loves me and can’t let me go that i’ll always matter to her but still said it had to end.
we haven’t spoken for 21 days now.
about a week ago i saw her at the gym. she definitely saw me but avoided me completely didn’t look or say anything but acted normal with my friend.
that same day she told someone we both know that deep down she still wants to be with me.
then recently i deleted my instagram and the next day she viewed my best friend’s story even though they don’t follow each other and he had removed her before. she’s never done that before.
so now i’m stuck trying to make sense of it.
she says she still wants me but her actions feel distant and avoidant.
i don’t know if this is fear confusion or just her trying to move on.
and i keep wondering if those small indirect things mean anything or if i’m just reading too much into it.
i’m not reaching out or chasing i’m just trying to understand what’s really going on.

Last updated on:2026-04-08T15:00:07+05:30