After the divorce, i took my own time for me. play the bass in the band, work, eat etc.
After 1 and a half year, i meet this girl. It was the drummer in the gospel band where i play the bass guitar. We had an amazing time together, like wow. Finally, i was happy, we felt in love with eachother. She was 3 months breakup after the 2 years relationship with her ex.
In this 6 months relationship with her, i finally feel myself like a priority, being accepted, feeling great.
2 weeks ago, after some days of pressure, she finaly told me that she is not longer 100% with me. She told me that she still miss her ex and she made a terrible mistake to break up with him. She told me that she is feeling very sry for hurting me like this, but she can't go any further with me.
I cry, i beg, i explain her everything and i told her that she is the one for me.
After 2 days, she send me this picture, i will translate for u.
"i have faith that everything is with a purpose, and if i'm that girl, everything will be redirected to us together. For now, i don't feel it. I'm trying to take some time alone with my thoughts, with me. I will keep safe all of your emotions, all your love and everything u show to me. I will not make fun of it. i will keep them safe with my all my heart and love. You were and u are a gift in my life.
You are here in my heart and in my soul, as i showed to you. Take care please. You are lovable. The question is not that your love for me was enough, the question is if my love for you was enough, if i was brave enough to love you 100%. i don't have the courage now. if u feel to write to me, write to me and i will respond. i will write to you, bec i wanna know about you. U are sweet and i still care about you. pls, belive me this: u didn't do me any wrong. just belive me, don't ask, just belive me."
She sends me this and no contact since then... i miss her, i love her.... maybe i am so stupid....
Last updated on:2026-05-13T20:31:43+05:30
Comments (7)
You must move on and choose yourself this time. If you're meant to be, you'll find each other again someday, but you have to move forward. Nothing you say or do can change someone else's feelings. Choose yourself and love yourself deeply. You deserve someone who will always choose you. You deserve more than this. You are strong, and you can do it. (Sorry, my English isn't very good.)
thank u for this. there are things i will never understand, but life goes by.
it hurts because she cared, but she still walked away.
you’re holding onto who she was with you, or what she actually showed you at the end?
i don't know. she was really nice and very good to me. so i don't understand why she take the step with me if she was still with her mind on her ex....
the relationship was very deep and spiritual, relaxing, feel like home..
i was with someone who still had one foot in their past too, and i kept trying to love her harder hoping she’d choose me. that line about “i don’t have the courage” would’ve broken me, it’s such a quiet kind of rejection
she broke me in so many pieces.