i think about the things you’ve said to me when im crying on the phone, begging you for a single sign you miss me.
telling me you hate seeing characters that remind you of me. that you sober up at the sight of any of our pictures together, that the memory of me aches like a raw wound.
“i just thought you would miss me.”
“how. genuinely how.”
I don’t think anyone’s ever torn me apart with two words faster. it isn’t an I love you. it wasn’t a breakup message.
It was learning just how much he wanted me gone.
Last updated on:2026-05-17T02:28:28+05:30
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ugh that “how. genuinely how.” would’ve shattered me too. i had an ex say something cold like that once and it rewired the way i saw our whole relationship for a while
yeah that’s how im feeling right now and i feel like im lying to myself when i say the coldness is a tactic to keep me away for rn but. who knows
when someone starts talking to you like your love is a burden, i think distance is the only thing that slowly brings your self worth back. i know that ache though, it sticks to EVERYTHING.
distance has been helping but I don’t want to leave him behind if that makes sense.
Remember that every day he chooses not to reach out to you and to keep moving forward, so you have to choose yourself and do the same. He is letting you go, so why would you beg someone who isn’t fighting for you?
I’m sending you lots of love. You are strong, and you can get through this.
thank you. 🩶I don’t even know where we stand because he hasn’t been able to communicate right since. But im just trying to grow the same way he is.
@infinitejax I know it hurts and that it’s hard, believe me, I know how painful it is. But I promise that once you go through that pain and face it, you’ll see the best version of yourself. You’re strong, and you can get through this. Don’t let it take over your life.
If someone doesn’t miss us, why even try making them? Chin up and move forward 🫶🏼
I want to but I don’t want to at the same time, if the makes sense. I want to move forward and be better but I want it to be with him.
@infinitejax Trust me, I know that feeling. You can love him and still move forward without him.
was that the moment you realized you were mourning the version of him you thought existed?
a little. I just realized how badly I’d fucked up in that moment more than anything else.