I got my stuff back. im missing my boots but I dont think ill ask for them. honestly maybe im in denial but I feel okay. there's no longer a reason to talk or reach out or have any ties anymore. its done.
I didnt see him. he left the stuff outside his house before he left for work. he said he didnt wanna make things difficult for me.
im not exactly sure what would have happend if I did see him again. but it is what it is.
I feel okay right now. I really thought that once this pick up was done id feel as though a chapter was closed. like im never gonna see him again. our story is over. in some ways I do feel like a chapter in my life is closed and a new one offically started today. but idk call it a gut feeling but I felt like I was gonna see him again. like our story wasnt completely over. in some ways that feeling was comforting but also scary. because I really felt like once this was over then I'd feel a complete tie gone with him.
it feels like these bumps and hardships in my life were ment to happen. but scarily I feel like our story isnt completely over.
maybe im crazy. either way. I feel okay today and it feels like I can be at peace with myself and move past everything I went through.
so ill take today as a win even if my clock is reset.
thank you for listening. I am starting to feel like my world is getting bigger.
Last updated on:2026-05-18T01:56:11+05:30
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o you think the “our story isn’t over” feeling is about him specifically, or more about how hard it is for your brain to accept that someone who mattered that much could suddenly disappear from your daily life?
getting my stuff back and staring at the bags in my room thinking “that’s it?” it’s weird how a whole relationship can suddenly fit into a few boxes. but that feeling of your world getting bigger again, i felt that too. that part is real
hopefully each day is easier for you.