I feel like I am going through a really strange experience. I experienced a recent trauma in breaking up with my boyfriend of two years. It was my first truly adult and serious relationship. I feel like i’ve allowed myself space and time to cry and process everything, but I went up on a trip with my family in the middle of my process. Somehow it’s a lot easier to focus here, and I recently had a very surreal experience last night. I was feeling really angry and hurt prior like everything I knew about myself and my perception was shattered. I cleaned my space and layed in my bed after having an indica edible to relax, and I began to think about everything, just about my place in the world and how others may feel, and I felt like I was seeing everything from a different angle outside of myself. I didn’t want to lose the feeling so I started journaling my thoughts as I saw them pass through, and even watched the midnight gospel. I went to see if I could make sense of them the next day and I was able too. I feel so sensitive now, and the world feels heavier because I feel like I can physically feel energy around me. I feel like through this trauma that may or may not be facilitated by this breakup, I was able to reach another level of awareness. But I also feel like a version of me died… the thought of navigating things from this place is overwhelming but i want to explore it more safely. I’m sure I probably sound looney but this is my experience so far. I just wanted to know if anyone else has or is going through the same thing? I feel like my previous reality was crushed and I want to know that i’m not alone in this. (Disclaimer: I do not regularly take edibles at all…i’m very careful with substances because I don’t want to overwhelm my brain)
Last updated on:2026-06-14T10:34:47+05:30
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does it feel more overwhelming than comforting right now? that part would tell me a lot about what you're experiencing.
I definitely felt overwhelmed the next day, still a little today too. Because everything seems different now, but it wasn’t overwhelming in a bad way by any means, it’s been a comforting experience at the same time and it wasn’t a negative overwhelm at all
i don't think you're looney at all. honestly, i stopped trying to force everything to make sense right away and just wrote down what i was feeling.
that’s what i’ve started doing too. It’s been helping a lot through this
after my worst breakup it felt like the person i was before died overnight, and i was looking at the world through completely different eyes. it was scary but also weirdly beautiful at times, like my emotions got turned all the way up.
You articulated this so well! This is exactly what I experienced too after my worst also... Thank you for taking the time to comment this. It makes me feel less alone 🤎I hope everything has been better for you since then, and that your healing journey has been going well with everything going in your favor