I miss him. This is the longest we have gone without speaking. He told me he never wants me to call or text him again and that he is blocking me on everything and will not respond to my messages. He is upset because I ended things and because when he wanted me to prove that I was worthy of his love I didn't. I stopped begging for breadcrumbs. I started to see my worth. I was honest with myself that he wasn't interested in changing. He didn't that he had verbally or physically abused me. he wasn't interested in taking accountability or changing. he is now dating and moving on instead of taking time to reflect and learn from the mistakes we both made. I wish that I had done things different. I wish that we had done things different. I wish he wasn't abusive. I wasn't the first girl he abused and I won't be the last. I still love him and miss him. I was addicted to the moments where he was nice to me. I was always changing the high. I have to let him go even though I don't want to. I can be with someone who tears me down verbally and tried to control and manipulate me. I fell in love with who I thought he was. I loved who he pretended to be. I also loved parts of who he really was. It's complicated when someone love bombs you. did her ever love me or was a just a source of validation and sex for him.
Last updated on:2026-06-14T07:16:34+05:30
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we are on the exact same timeline… we got this!!! stay strong.
i stayed way too long with someone who could be incredibly sweet one day and cruel the next, and letting go of the version of him i fell in love with hurt more than losing the relationship itself.
i could miss someone and still know they weren't safe for me, those two things can exist at the same time. i kept reminding myself that love didn't erase the abuse
when you think about the moments you miss most, are they mostly from the beginning when he was love bombing you, or were there still genuinely good moments near the end too?