I've had so much time to think and it's made me realize I may never get over him. He will always have a special place in my heart. The problem was that our social lives were completely opposite, and that slowly depleted both of our mental heath. I feel we were the right people wrong time. We both have a lot to work through ( and he needs to grow up a little. tho ik not right now he deserves to be stupidly reckless and have the time of his life) so yeah, I love him. but right now I've gotta focus completely on me otherwise we'd never stand a chance. idek if he'd even want to try again in the future. idk that's just where my minds at lately. whether he takes me back or not. by then I'll have evolved into a better me. and that's all that truly matters.