English isn’t my first language, so I apologize if this isn’t written perfectly, but I’m writing this for someone who truly needs to read it.
I went through the worst weeks of my life. I cried, I threw up, I had panic attacks, I felt guilty, I pleaded so much, I regretted things, I got drunk, and I felt an unbearable amount of pain. I truly thought the pain would never end, that my life was over, and that nothing made sense without him.
But I decided to seek help — to go to therapy, lean on my family and friends, see a psychiatrist, take my medication, exercise, read constantly, learn new things, and find comfort in God.
Now it’s been two days without a panic attack. Every day I feel stronger and better. For the first time, I feel like the suffering is finally ending. I still feel sad, but it’s a calm kind of sadness. I found happiness in other things, and I realized that love isn’t found through romance alone — it exists in every person who loves you and stays by your side. But most importantly, love is found within yourself.
There may still be setbacks, but have the strength to get back up and keep going, because the future waiting for you is bright. Seek help. Choose yourself.
If you love him so much and trust him so deeply, then trust that he chose, by his own will, to walk away and not come back because he believes that is the best for him. Every single day he chooses to stay away and not reach out to you. So trust his decision and respect it. Stop looking for him. Choose yourself.
Last updated on:2026-05-18T21:28:52+05:30
Comments (13)
keep choosing yourself! 🙏💪
Thank you so much for being here for me!
do you feel like therapy was the thing that changed everything for you, or was it more all the small things together over time?
Therapy and medication were 50% of my progress, but the other 50% is in the small things, like going for walks, eating well, and spending time with your friends and family. Everything works together to help you heal.
i’m reading this with tears in my eyes because i was EXACTLY where you are a few months ago. the panic attacks, begging, throwing up from anxiety, feeling like i’d never survive it. then one day i realized i hadn’t cried that morning. healing sneaks up on you like that 🤍
Your progress gives me a lot of hope. Thank you so much for sharing this, because I truly felt like there was no way out. Every little bit of progress I feel makes me feel stronger, so thank you so much for your words.
stay strong🙏🙏🙏
I read about your situation, and it’s so painful that I can’t even pretend to fully understand it. But reading your story gave me so much hope that healing is possible. You’re a really strong person. Thank you so much for commenting.
@megaesbirro thank u for reading that.
today is 4 weeks since she left, and gues what....she's already back to her ex(like to weeks ago they were already back togheter). so yeah, i need to be strong.
life goes on.
stay strong!
@Andrei She doesn't deserve you. You're a kind and loving person. You deserve someone who loves you deeply, and you also deserve to love yourself. The fact that you're here and commenting to help others shows the kind of person you are. She'll regret losing you, but that doesn't matter anymore. You must move on, no matter how painful it is. Don't go back to her. Karma is real, and her karma will be to see you stronger and happier than ever. Don't heal from hatred, don't hate her. Her karma will come on its own, maybe not today, but someday.
And when you want to look for her, remember that if she loved you she would choose you, but she chooses every day, of her own free will, not to be with you, and that's enough to move on and get over her.
Focus on yourself, I'm here for you whenever you need to talk!
@megaesbirro i am not gona hate her, like i don't even hate my ex wife. since i loved my ex wife and then the new girl.
i don't know if she will regret me, because she's already back to her ex.
let me explain something i can't understand - and oh gosh, i just don't understand.
how is posible to fully dissaper from a relation? how those brains works? u just broke someone heart, how can u even smile without feeling guilty?
i am not going back to her, not even she eventualy at some point, she will come back to me. next time when i will be next to her, it will be in october(we still sing togheter) but i will not be available(for her).
i know karma is real and when the honey moon with her ex will be over, she will left him, again, or he will break her heart.
it's true , i also went through the same things, when she cheated on me, I was a wreck, i was filled with anger wanted to do something to her, then came the withdrawal as I was blocked, then the sadness dawned in mixed with agony and pain in my chest, it felt like my whole world collapsed. And the whole grief cycle went on for about 3 months, in those 3 months i thought I would never recover,like this is going to be permanent. but here I am and recovered enough, yes there is sadness, and overthinking sometimes but happy that I'm out of the situation, to have grip over my life and work.
it does gets better and only way to get better is to go through
Thank you for sharing your progress with me, it makes me feel understood by someone.
Remember that even when there’s sadness, you can still have a good day. Everything will be okay, and we will heal from this.
If they chose not to have us in their lives, then honestly, fuck them.