I ended things again after we got back together because he doesn’t seem certain about what he wants from me. He expects full love and commitment, yet he still holds onto feelings for his ex and seems unable to fully love me in return.
Right now, everything feels confusing mixing the good memories with the painful ones. Some days I felt truly loved and other days it felt like he just wanted to walk away. I know I deserve better and I’m finally going to therapy, which is helping me slowly get my life back instead of constantly thinking about him.
What hurts the most is that he wasn’t just my partner he was also my best friend. Now when something happens in my life, I can’t share it with him anymore. That loss is the hardest part of leaving
I didn’t just lose my first love, I lost my closest friend too.
Last updated on:2026-05-24T17:44:45+05:30
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what’s hurting now is missing HIM, or missing the version of safety and closeness you thought the relationship could become eventually?
I think I’m grieving both him and the future I thought we could’ve had. Maybe that’s why it hurts this much.
I am feeling like there is no one for me, or I am not for relationship. Or should I just trt to be alone and strong.
I feel that too sometimes. But I’m trying to learn that being alone for a while doesn’t mean I’m unlovable, maybe it just means I need to choose myself first and you should too!
someone wanted all my love while still emotionally tied to their ex, and it slowly made me question myself. the good moments kept me hanging on because i knew the connection was real, but the inconsistency hurt more every time
This is exactly how it felt! The connection was real, but the uncertainty slowly made me lose myself
try journaling.This will improve your anxiety.make urself emotionally independant.
Thank you. I’m trying to work on myself and become emotionally independent again, one step at a time😅
keep your head up, keep moving forward, and know you're not alone friend ❤️
Thank you ❤️ It really helps knowing I’m not alone in feeling this way.