for the longest time i thought i would never love someone deeply enough to have my heart truly broken. turns out i was very wrong.
it's been six months. SIX. and somehow i still miss him. our breakup was complicated and messy. technically i broke up with him first and then he ended things in response so even now it's hard to explain what actually happened.
part of me feels ridiculous for still longing for him after all this time. but another part of me has realized something i never knew before.
i am capable of loving someone that deeply.
deep enough that six months later a piece of my heart still aches for him. deep enough that some of that love is still there even now.
as painful as that is i'm strangely proud of it. i'm proud that i let myself love that fully. i'm proud that i opened my heart enough for it to matter this much.
Last updated on:2026-06-03T14:49:11+05:30
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when you miss him now, do you find yourself missing who he actually was, or do you miss the version of the future you thought the two of you were going to have together?
i like the way you're looking at this. when i stopped treating my love as evidence that i was stuck and started seeing it as proof that i showed up fully, some of the shame around missing him faded.
after my breakup i kept judging myself for still caring months later, but eventually i realized the fact that i could love someone that deeply wasn't something to be ashamed of. it hurt like hell, but it also felt human